All I really need right now is to let out a whiney, cliche, emotional rant. I hope you are all ok with that.
I am tired of being taken advantage of. I am tired of being judged no matter what I do. I am tired of everyone thinking they know it all and that I obviously know nothing.
I am currently (most likely) someone’s contingency plan. Let me tell you, that hurts. It is such a terrible place to be. How can someone go from “I think I more than like you” to “have a nice semester” in less than 1 week? Worst of all, How can someone say he’d like to “please” be “good friends” but make absolutely no attempts to contact me? It’s such crap.
I don’t mind if feelings change - it happens. But don’t lie to me about it. And definitely don’t sneakily try to both string me along AND say you want to end it so I don’t get strung along at the same time.
Maybe I’m totally wrong. Maybe there are other factors. All I know is, I feel very used. I don’t understand why I got so attached after such a short time. I want to move on. I wasn’t even in love! Why is it so hard this time?
And why do I keep making it worse by searching for words I am never going to hear if I have to ask? That’s the real question here. It is all my fault, after all; I am bringing this painful existence upon myself, as always.
You know what? I am OVER IT.
